How I Survived Junior Year 

Yesterday was my last day of junior year. My goodness, it has been quite a journey. I can’t believe the hardest year of high school over. I aced all of my classes except AP chemistry, which I got a B in. So I spent my last day shrieking for joy when I found out my AP lang teacher was rounding my 89.9% to an A-, delivering cards to all my teachers to express my overwhelming gratitude for how much they have taught me this year. I wanted to take some time to explore how much I’ve grown this year, and explain the importance of looking back and saying, “thank you.”

Reflection:

I didn’t know that one day I would think calculus was fun.

I remember struggling so much in math. Freshman year, I had two full blown panic attacks in my Algebra 2 class. I remember going in for the first time, bringing the weight of every test I have ever failed up until that point, saying 3 words that changed my life: I need help. I can’t do this on my own. And I remember my teacher asking me, “With what?” And then bursting into tears, slowly sitting down, and allowing my teacher to sift through my thoughts and pull me on my feet again.

I remember getting pulled in the counseling office. I was told to drop the class. I flipped my hair and left.

The following year didn’t start off much better. On the 5th day of pre-cal, I burst into tears again while asking my teacher questions. He had quite the intimidating demeanor, but I absolutely love him now. With a lot of hard work, I aced math for the first time in my life.

But calculus was a completely different journey. I had such a phenomenal teacher who never ceased to make me laugh. The only time I left class without smiling was when I got a D on the second test. Other than that, I was never afraid to ask questions. My teacher always knew the right things to say, making calculus extremely fun and hard all at the same time. I spent many lunches trying to crack problems on the board with him and overall learned so much. When I found out I was getting an A in calculus, I could barely fathom how I made it this far. So I made him a card, thanking him for being so patient with me.

Throughout this journey, the math teacher I had freshman year was always there for me. I was her T.A this year too, allowing me to give back a little. This year she was retiring, so I made her a jar entitled, “25 Ways You’ve Changed My Life.” I’m going to miss her as a mentor a lot. My journey getting here started with her.


I also didn’t know I would find myself in one of the hardest classes at my school, AP chemistry. That class totally ruined my gpa. But if I had to trade every memory, every morning spent getting my questions answered, every tear, and every guest speaker for a 4.0, I wouldn’t. My teacher was again one of the most amazing human beings on the face of this planet. He was so compassionate. You could tell him anything. I am so grateful I got to have him pour so much into my life. 

I’m so grateful for flying kites in English, biking to school with my Econ teacher, and catching up on homework in history. I’m so thankful for my Econ teacher for letting me push all of the desks in his class aside so I could practice dance turns on finals day. It was so nice to spend my last day delivering cards to my teachers. It was so nice to say, “thank you.” Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for changing my world.

Junior year was really stressful. I didn’t think I would make it. It always seems impossible until it is done. Honestly I think I survived by the pure grace of God. 

Tips For an Incoming Junior

1. If you don’t understand something, ask for help. It is so much easier than waiting until everything has snowballed. 

2. Do not become caught up in perfecting everything. Be grateful for every borderline A or B that comes, because failing tests is not an uncommon practice. 

3. Practice makes perfect, and there is nothing you cannot do.

4. Find a few good friends who will love you for who you are that are just as motivated and driven. Just because your personality is the opposite of theirs, it doesn’t mean you can’t become best friends. 

5. Do what you love. You cannot just do school. Make sure you are taking time to yourself every week to avoid burnout. 

6. Don’t compare your grades to others. I know this one is hard, but you should aim to only be better than you were yesterday, and nothing more. 

7. Sleep. Sleep is great. Don’t procrastinate, and then you will get a lot of it.

8. Study with your friends. If something seems super daunting, conquer it with someone else. Studying for AP chem tests with my friend helped so much. 

9. Pray. Don’t worry about anything, pray about everything. My year would’ve probably gone better if I did this one more often. 

10. Challenge yourself. Taking classes that I loved this year made all the difference, even though they were so hard. 

11. Be open minded. Go to school wanting to learn, and you will. 

12. Plan your studying to keep yourself from being overwhelmed. 

13. Start studying for AP tests as soon as possible. 

14. Know your stengths and weaknesses. Focus on making your weaknesses into strengths.

15. Lastly, have fun. Do things that you never thought were possible. 🙂 

Senior year is going to be so much fun. I only have 4 classes, and I’m taking voice at my community college for a little extra pzazz. I’m going to be dancing again, hopefully, and will be helping lead Christian club at my school. 

I’m so grateful for this year, and even more excited for what is to come. Through it all, I know that I will survive senior year as long as I don’t try to do it all on my own. 🙂 

How did your school year go? Tell me down below! 

10 Bible Verses I Cling To For Dear Life 

Happy Friday! Today I’m going to share with you 10 bible verses I love so incredibly much. 💜

1.


Every day I remind myself this. It is hard to believe at times, but God says it’s true so it must be. One of my favorite leaders shared this with me when I was bawling tears in church my freshman year, and I’ve been obsessed with this ever since. If you believe in God, then you believe he made you amazing because you trust his works. It shouldn’t be any more complicated than that 🙂

2.

This verse really hits me hard sometimes as I am such a nerd and love school. I have to remind myself that my wisdom comes from God when I succeed in school, and that even if I fail a million tests he is never going to let me down. Working hard is great, but he holds success in store for anyone who freely chases after Him. Our intelligence is purely a reflection of how amazing he is.

3. 

This verse is a reminder that it’s okay to not understand everything about God. In fact, I am glad I don’t understand everything about God. A God that surpasses human cognitive comprehension is one worth putting my faith in. If I could understand God, then he wouldn’t be as cool.

4.


This verse is the one I go to when I feel like I’m at my end. It encourages me to keep going and to stay confident in God, and in what He is doing in and through me.

5.

My dad actually shared this verse with me. Some of the translations replace “but time and chance happen to them all” with “but those who persevere to the end.” I love both. In the end, it doesn’t matter how smart or strong you are because life is brutal and happens to everyone. Those who keep going and don’t give up will make it.

6. My favorite translation of this verse is, “The one who loves us gives us an overwhelming victory in all of these difficulties.” This is a huge reminder to me that every difficulty we face has a reward, and in the end the reward is heaven.

7. 

This verse explains itself. Everything happens for a reason. When I look back at my past, this verse is so evident it is freakishly insane.

8.Healing is an arduous process. We are healing from something. Sometimes I don’t even think it’s possible to completely heal. But we aren’t supposed to heal ourselves. Jesus already paid it all for us, and had bandaged all of our wounds. I love that.

9. 

I love the entirety of Psalm 18. God will never give you a dream and then not equip you for the battle. Through every trial I’ve been through, God has placed the most perfect mentors in my life, and sometimes even the perfect strangers, to guide me through.

10. Psalm 139 is literally goals. There is a song I used to listen to every morning by Sarah Reeves. I should honestly still listen to it every day, because that verse should still be my daily prayer.

Every day I am hoping that my motives are correct. Before I commit to doing anything, I need to make sure I am doing it for he right reasons. In the translation that Sarah sings, she says, “Search me o God and know my heart. Try me, and know my anxieties. And see if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me in your way, everlasting.” The see if there is any wicked way in me part gets to me. Am I trying to do all of these things for selfish reasons? Please, God, if I am, do not let me proceed any further.

But I love that God knows my anxieties. I find that image very comforting, and very hopeful.

So these are some verses that I cling to for dear life. I have found that confronting negative thoughts on the spot with scripture is so important, because then you don’t give those thoughts time to completely ruin your day.

Let me know your favorite bible verses below. 🙂

Why Having Eczema is a Blessing in Disguise

Today I had a setback in my eczema. After taking my last calculus test, my friends and I had a much needed girl’s sleepover night consisting of cards against humanity, massages, swimming, and love. It turns out that when I got out of the shower after swimming I used a cream that I have been suspecting being sensitive to, and my skin totally flared up. But my friends were amazing. I also started crying in the morning which surprisingly really helped to assuage the itching, and then started crying even harder after my friends helped me moisturize my body. The night before they helped me make a salad because I’m allergic to everything and can’t eat pizza, and in the morning they helped me make a smoothie. My friend Alyssa would check everything to make sure it was safe for me to eat, and the rest of them did everything they could to keep me from scratching. I was slightly mad at myself for crying, but they found it honorable that I would cry in front of them. They had no pity, just love and understanding, as they have all been through their own struggles. 


It is easy to question why you have to go through something beyond your control, or hate it and think of it with extreme bitterness and resentment. Before I started understanding my triggers, I used to sit in front of a mirror and scratch myself until I bled, crying because I was so itchy and had no idea what to do with myself. And there is nothing wrong with crying, but there is a lot wrong with hating yourself. I used to think I would never get better and would have to live with it for the rest of my life. There was a lot of false hope in the journey, like a $700 cream called Eucrisa that helped but wasn’t powerful enough to keep my skin healthy during AP exams. Don’t get me wrong, I am a complete nerd and love learning about the chemistry of new drugs and totally support them. But for eczema, knowing what triggers it for you is so important as it is different for everyone. Eucrisa is a great cream for times like now when you accidentally mess up and have a setback. But if you don’t believe you are strong enough to get better, you never will. 

On the flip side, my eczema is a part of me. It forces me to take care of myself. If I never had it, my friends wouldn’t have been able to show me love through it. It has brought me so much closer to my friends, and has allowed me to connect better with so many people at the hospital. It challenges me every day to wake up and live knowing that I am strong, smart, and beautiful. I have the choice every day to treat it like a burden or an accessory. It is a blessing to know that when something is wrong with me internally that it will show up on my skin, challenging me to be healthier, stronger, and more genuine. I am lucky. I am lucky to get to make amazing smoothie bowls every day. I am lucky to know that I will get my skin regiment down someday, while right now I am still learning. I am lucky because it could be so much worse. I am lucky to have it rather than someone else, as I would never wish this upon anyone. 

And although it is a part of me, it doesn’t define me. It didn’t hinder me from biking 20 miles to and from school with my econ teacher. I’m not going to let it stop me from any of my dreams. In fact, having eczema has influenced my dreams. I think drugs are so fascinating and maybe will create my own eczema cream or cure one day. It hasn’t stopped me from succeeding in AP chemistry, though there were times the stress of the class did not go well with my eczema. I hope to major in biochemistry with emphasis in pharmacology or something. If I go to med school one day, hopefully my experiences will all pay off. After all, I think eczema had made me more humble and empathetic. And knowing that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, I know eczema is not who I am. It is just another hurdle in life I must go through. In heaven I will have clear skin, because pain and suffering will no longer exist when we finally make it. 

I look at my skin right now. For a flare up, it is nowhere near as red as it was before. I smile when I look in the mirror. Because smiling boosts endorphins. Because I am so blessed to be me after all. 

30 Random Facts About Me 

1. The picture looks like I’m swimming somewhere really cool when it’s really the creek behind my neighborhood.

2. I am a complete chemistry nerd.


3. My parents grew up on an island in the middle of nowhere called Mauritius, right next to Madagascar.

4. I just deleted my Instagram (will probably post more about that)!

5. Once upon a time I was doing cartwheels in my backyard and forgot to put my hands down, and now I can do aerials! This video is from a while ago.


6. I used to play piano for 8 years (I might write a post about my journey with finding what I love to do hehe).

7. I also used to figure skate! Figure skating was amazing.


8. I LOVE to write. Obviously. I’ve been keeping journals since I was in 5th grade.

9. Walruses are one of my favorite animals of all time.

10. The only thing I know how to draw = cats.

11. I love climbing trees.

12. I love learning about new cultures. 

13. I love biking.


14. I thrift literally everything.

15. I live in California 🙂

16. One day I want to lead worship.

17. Dream job: a doctor who is extremely God loving and compassionate.

18. I made the speech team when I was in 8th grade! You can read about that here.

19. I nearly failed algebra. And we’re in calculus now, so we’re doing pretty good 🙂

20. I love making jars for people’s birthdays.


21. I’ve been on 2 super amazing mission trips to Mexico. I wrote about the second one Here: if you want me to write about the first one let me know!

22. Middle school was not my finest time.

23. I’m a horrible test taker.

24. I try to be gentle but I trip over everything.

25. I’m allergic to dogs, cats, and bunnies. I can still pet most dogs though without getting a rash!


26. I was born with eczema.

27. I donated my hair once!


28. I got a tiny hairline fracture in my ankle from falling on a switch leap the night before my algebra 2 final freshman year. But I don’t know if that counts as breaking a bone!

29. God has been a part of my life since I was 5.

30. Every day I am slowly learning to see myself the way God sees me.

If any of you can relate to any of those, let me know that I’m not the only one! Also let me know if there is anything you’d like to see me write about more! And if you want to leave your blog link too, I’d love to get to know you guys too. Get excited because I have new posts planned for y’all every weekend. Most of them will be pretty deep.  🙂